view out world; right here she comes!
I *really* didn’t believe I would cry this time.
We’ve been doing preschool drop-off for, what, a full year now? A full year! All last year, all summertime long, so this morning I thought, “We got this!”
Today was Connor’s very first day of institution in the Honeybee class (3-4 year olds), so I got her up a bit early, as well as we had a fun breakfast (strawberries as well as a Trader Joe’s Pop Tart), did some coloring, got prepared for school, as well as then did what I hope will be our annual first-day-of-school photo session in the front yard.
The pendant was her idea, by the way. (“It matches with my bows.”)
After that, we packed up her stuff as well as drove to the school. I took her to her new classroom, as well as at that point, I was still holding it together. I made everything with the “hellos” to her instructors as well as her classmates.
Then we put her stuff away in her cubby, as well as I took her to one of the activity stations she was interested in. (Side note: There was Play-Doh, by the way, which is prohibited fruit in our home since it includes gluten, as well as El Hub has celiac, so whenever Connor sees Play-Doh she’s like OOOOH!)
Cats & makeup Sweatshirt ??
Once she was settled in, I provided her a hug, told her I’d see her soon, as well as blew her a kiss as I walked out the door.
It wasn’t up until I had closed the door behind me as well as was walking to my cars and truck that I started to feel wobbly inside…
And boy, I let the tears fall. I sat in the cars and truck as well as bawled for a solid five minutes.
Overall…I believed this type of thing would get simpler over time, however I assumption it doesn’t. viewing that tender part of your heart go out into the world most likely doesn’t get a whole great deal easier, as well as then there’s the pointer that time is passing, as well as there’s nothing you can do to stop it. She’ll just pull even more as well as even more away from me every year…
This time last year… I miss those chubby infant cheeks.
Being so intensely needed by one more creature is emotionally, physically as well as psychologically taxing, however I wouldn’t modification it for anything the world. I’m eternally grateful for having satisfied Tabs, as well as I say thanks to the world as well as the stars for sending me Connor.
Sometimes I can’t believe she was ever this small…
It all feels like a dream, as well as time is passing method as well fast.
She’ll be going to preschool five days a week now. Did I mention that?
Last year it was only two days a week, so I still had a great amount of time with her at home, as well as I believe that’s been the most difficult part this time around around — understanding that she’ll be out in the world, out with her friends, as well as I understand it’ll be truly great for her social development, however still… I keep telling myself that this is exactly how it is. This is normal. someday she’ll be asking to borrow the cars and truck keys, as well as I’ll be viewing her drive away without me.
I understand that’s still a long methods from now, however I can see it in my mind remove as day, ya know? Pardon me while I go cry again… ? LOL.
Everyone states that being a parent is hard, as well as I believe this is the hardest part — discovering the stamina to let them go.
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